Miscarriage

Generally, I try to keep my blog a happy place and not burden all of my lovely followers with my junk but I had an epiphany today. Some of my favorite posts by other bloggers have been ones where they open up and share what is really going on and I am comforted when I read about their "junk" because I know I'm not the only one. Based on that thought I have decided to share some of my struggles with the hope that if anyone else out there is feeling similar that they know they are not alone.

I have been feeling sad recently about the miscarriage I suffered over the summer. Sometimes I am just plain mad. When I read back through my posts about it I am really mad. Why did I feel like I had to play down the situation? Why didn't I just let myself grieve? If I had not miscarried  I would be approximately 25 weeks now. Sometimes I feel an overwhelming sense of loss. Sometimes I feel afraid. 



I need to write these words on a bunch of post its and put them all around my house because my emotions can be very overwhelming at times. If you have suffered a miscarriage, know that you are not along. And if you need someone to talk to please feel free to email me. (sara.stofferahn[at]gmail[dot]com)

So if I owe you something like an email or blog button or whatever- it's coming. My heart is heavy and I am working at a slower pace these days. 

12 comments:

  1. big love and hugs. i hope that my cyber cuddles somehow get through and ease a little of your pain xox

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  3. Sara! If you ever need to talk I'm here for you. I heart you and Lilly and I'm so so sorry you're feeling overwhelmed. :( My friends had a miscarriage about a year ago and it was extremely heart breaking. I'm sending big hugs your way.

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  4. Sara - you will be in my thoughts and prayers!

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  5. I'm so sorry to hear that Sara. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers, and we're all here for ya too.

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  6. Aw I'm so sorry. To a certain extent I know how rough that is. My mom had one before my youngest brother was born. Don't be angry at yourself for downplaying it here, though. Maybe you just weren't ready to open up. There's a lot going on in my life that I'm just not willing to share on my blog at the time. Unfortunately for me that means I hardly update it. Just keep writing about what you feel comfortable sharing. <3

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  7. I just began reading your blog when I came across this post. I absolutely know how you feel. I went through the same thing at the beginning of the year, and I still feel that sadness/anger combination. I try to remind myself that everything has been scripted for our lives by the most magnificent playwright and that it will all happen in his timing. It isn't easy some days, but he doesn't put anything in our path that we cannot overcome. My heart is with you! I'm glad you shared your pain, you're not alone.

    Sincerely,
    Grace Elizabeth
    http://mason-jar-memories.blogspot.com/

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  8. my mom had a miscarriage when I was in high school. She was pretty far a long when it happened. She already had a name, Sophie. My mom took it really hard. For about a year she was sort of somewhere else.

    Slowly but surely she came back to us. I am sending love to you lady, it is a hard thing to go through. I am sorry.

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  9. I think it is is brave and wonderful for you to share what's going on with your readers. And I think that you should take the time that you need to grieve in the way that is right for you. Sending kind thoughts your way ...

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  10. Blogging cannot always be happy and having an outlet is so important. I cannot say I know how you feel but I do know the feeling of being brought down by a greater force. Think of how strong you are, understand it's ok not to "be you" everyday and know how many people care for you.

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  11. I'm so sorry about your pain and sadness. I can't even imagine. My sister unfortunately had two miscarriages this year and it was horrible to have to watch her go through that. I hope that you can find comfort somehow. <3

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  12. It takes a lot of courage to write a post like this. I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. Sending prayers for peace in the midst of such heartache.

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